Poem For Claire

This was a poem I wrote for one of my classmates in my class for fun. I’ve evolved as a better writer since then so this isn’t my best work, but I thought it would be interesting to see how much my writing has changed since then.

Hey It’s Claire!

Some people prefer to call her Claire-bear

Sometimes she can be kind of mean

But I guarantee she’s nothing like you’ve ever seen

You say that you’re very tender?

To this day I’m unaware of your gender

I’m sorry for that comment, I didn’t mean it

I just wish I was as you see fit

I hope that one day you get to see this

You’ll never love me as much as you love Chris

I promise to you this wasn’t written as a dare

Me writing poems is pretty rare

I’m putting my poem out there

If you happen to care

This was a poem for Claire-bear

 

I wrote this when we began our poetry unit and I was just coming up with rhymes with a friend of mine. Throughout the unit I found a love for poetry, mostly reading it not really for writing it. My writing style has improved since then and I’m posting this to show where I started to write poetry. This was messy and not written very clean, but it was made up in around 30 minutes and just for fun. I hope this inspires writers because I know that anyone can write they just have to begin somewhere, even if it’s a cheesy love poem.

 

 

Resolution – Short Story

Fireworks ascended lighting up the night sky. People counted down the seconds until the clock struck midnight. Downtown Calgary was brimming with energy. 17th Avenue wasn’t holding the expectations of a New Year’s Eve party as much as you would think.  A homeless urchin wandered the streets wearing half ripped jeans and grimy coat. He reeked of marijuana and dried sweat. Empty beer bottles blinked at him in the light of the New Year’s Eve fireworks. He stood in his usual spot beside the bench facing the street. The streets that used to be covered with snow was polluted with food wrappers, bottles and empty coffee cups. A teenager crossed his path colliding into him, irritated, the man barked a handful of insults at the startled teen. The teen responded by fleeing the situation. The man sauntered down the sidewalk, glancing curiously. Looking towards various restaurants he spotted a family of 5, he stopped. They were cheery, lively and were celebrating the past year. This triggered a memory of the man’s childhood. When he was loved by his father, when he had a place to call home, and when drugs weren’t an influence on his life, but that all changed when the decision between family and heroin appeared. He resumed walking down the sidewalk, and found a bench to end the night.

The sound of Calgary’s traffic woke him up. Distant screeching of tires approached the man at a rapid speeds. A drunk driver. The low whine of an accelerating car is cut off by a colossal crunching of metal and the screeching of a car sliding across the road. The man stands motionlessly as the crushed mass that had once been a red Honda civic lies in front of him. He walked up to a drunk party goer and rummaged through the drivers coat and tore his wallet searching for change or anything of value to him. He came across a handful of nickels and dimes and proceeded to wipe the blood off of them. Bystanders walked by and didn’t seem to care, they just simply waited for the ambulance to arrive.

He stepped inside of the car that had collided with the drunk drivers. It was a woman in the front seat. Her straight, blonde hair covered a little more than half her face. She was unconscious. Streams of blood flowed down her arms like a racing river of blood. He noticed a wallet in her jacket’s pocket and reached in to grab it. The woman’s body slid slightly out of position exposing her face, a few moments after, he caught himself staring into his sister’s eyes.

Alan Moore

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I recently read one of Alan Moore’s novels Watchmen. Watchmen was a thrilling novel introducing various perspectives. It had many dilemmas that were interesting to watch, how characters dealt with them. Usually readers avoid comic books or something with pictures, and I don’t think that should limit their options. Watchmen was recognized as Time’s list of 100 best novels. If you can’t take my word for it then we can observe statistics. Moore provides  different perspectives and a different style of writing that some readers haven’t experienced and are afraid to adapt to. He also uses ideologies that other authors haven’t discovered and incorporates that into his writing. Moore is comfortable writing in the perspective of someone with a mental illness, different gender, or anything dark. This gives his characters their own story, making them significant in the readers mind. Some of Moore’s best work is Watchmen, V for Vendetta and From Hell. Many of his books have been turned into Hollywood films, mostly his famous pieces of work, but the books are much better.I highly recommend people reading some of his work, but the age groups range because some of the content is too violent. I admire Alan Moore and hope to read more of his work in the future.

Privilege

This picture was presented to us by our teacher and we wrote a response towards it. This was my response after I researched it more.

Kevin Carter took this picture in 1993. This picture is known as an award-winning photograph that depicted famine in Sudan.  I thought of the Kevin’s thoughts when he was taking the picture. What had come to his mind when he was taking the picture? What did he do after he took the picture? This isn’t the only child that suffers this way in Sudan. There are many other people that are starving and suffering slow deaths in Sudan like this, this is merely a glimpse of what’s really happening. I feel that we don’t take time to appreciate and be grateful of where we live and what we have. There’s not something everyday that threatens our existence. Many of us live in safe environments and you’re probably reading this off your phone or computer in the safety of your own home. The people that are suffering this way don’t deserve this at all. Kevin took his own life at the age of 33 one year after he took this picture. One of the lines from his suicide note read: “I’m really, really sorry. The pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist… depressed … without phone … money for rent … money for child support … money for debts … money!!! … I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings and corpses and anger and pain … of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners … I have gone to join Ken if I am that lucky.” Kevin saw past what the media hides from us, pain of thousands and he thought that he couldn’t do anything about it except watch. Kevin has taken many other pictures of children like this one in the picture, but most of them were not published.

R.I.P Kevin Carter.

Sealed Jar

The loneliest moment in one’s life is realizing that no one wants to talk to you. There’s probably a reason and you’ll try to fix yourself and change who you are countless times, but you’ll end up where you started. Loneliness is like living in a sealed jar. You observe beautiful things and have a different perspective on people, but nobody hears you. You’re curious about the various environments you could be apart of, but were never accepted in. Some people can see you struggling to escape your jar. They decide to stay as bystanders and watch, some will just walk by and continue with their day and one will walk up to your jar and let you escape. One day that one person will walk up to you and open up your jar. One day you’ll be free, free to adventure into a different setting, different people, and different opportunities.  There will be limitless possibilities once someone lets you into their life. You’ll be exposed to new places to discover and new people to meet and as you grow and meet more and more people you’ll discover that you’re a different person. No longer will you live in solitude for the rest of your life, breaking out of your jar will be the most satisfying feeling and it will come that is promised.

This post was inspired by an emulation that I had to write for one of my classmate’s writing seminar.

Side Spoken Word Poem

Anxiety is an epidemic, and yet my best friend
I once read that anxiety is being brutally beaten 5 times a day, but never knowing when
Yet it’s always been there for me through thick and thin

Despite never quite meeting on the same page,

Anxiety is the only friend I’ve greeted everyday

Like an alarm clock in the morning, but only for me
Only this alarm is always on, even when I try to sleep
Anxiety is the one thing I cannot let go
It follows, and like a mirror, wherever I look it will show
It’s my body shaking when I speak to a group
It’s killing me to keep my voice level as I say this to you
Believe it or not the viewing people in their underwear doesn’t help either
Because what if you’re looking at mine and see I’ve got briefs on
Anxiety is a bullet shot through guns that everyone except me can use
Anxiety is everywhere.

I even see it in you.

Spoken Word Poem

It was 9 in the morning and I heard a knock at my door

Wasn’t expecting anyone and was wondering what it was for

I peered into the peephole to investigate

I realized it one of my old high school classmates

It was the kid who was bullied from grade eight through twelve

The kid who was beat every day until saved, by the bell.

The same kid that I would watch painfully humiliated, the same kid neglected by everyone.

Deep down he was devastated,

Agitated

However he kept quiet and remained segregated.

This was the same person that told me 3 years ago that his life wasn’t working out and he was worthless, year later I caught him standing on top of a bridge crying.

This was the kid who never saw any light at the end of the tunnel, and when he was digging his grave all you did was, well give him the shovel.

This began when he was 13 years old and bullying stories were just being told

This began when they made fun of him

This began when they picked him last, for gym

This shouldn’t have begun with him

His parents would ask what’s wrong and he’d reply with a simple “I’m fine”. But he’s not, in fact he’s coming closer to the end of the line, because he has to dine on anti-depressants every day before going to bed, hoping to wake up the next day realizing this was all something he had dreamt.

If only he could be able to sleep.

The problem with this society is you can not perceive this concealed agony who abuses me and will go to a certain degree, which will attempt to demolish, destroy and obliterate me

The problem with this society is that no one can see through the depression and anxiety.

We catch a slight glimpse of the reality when the worst is over

The world knew about Amanda Todd when the worst for her was over

The problem with this society is we are either victims of a generation, or a generation of victims.

Interviewing My Dad

My interview was long and some of it was personal, so this is only some of the answers I received. These are the answers my dad gave to me after me interviewing him.

Q: What’s your greatest fear?

A: “My greatest fear is probably to stop being compassionate to my family. I want to make sure everyone feels great all the time.”

Q: Who do you admire?

A: ” I admire my youngest son. He’s only three years old and so adventurous, energetic and happy.”

Q: What’s a good quality in men?

A: “Men should be able so stand by what they say. They should be able to keep promises and not give up on people.”

Q: What’s a good quality in women?

A: “Women should be independent, honest and nurturing.”

Q: Which words or phrases do you overuse?

A: “Fine, Alright, Okay”

Q: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

A: “Be able to make everyone happy, I don’t think that’s possible, but that’s how I want to change my self, be able to make EVERYONE happy.”

Q: If you could be an animal what would you be?

A: “A horse.”

Q: If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you?

A: “If I could live anywhere it would be Canada. Canada’s amazing and free. We have so much opportunity here, especially the kids like you and everyday you see something different, I love Canada.”

Q: What’s your most valuable possession?

A: “My wedding ring”

Q: Do you have any regrets in your life?

A: “Nope, no regrets”

Q: What do you value in your friends?

A: “Honesty and respect. Being honest is probably the biggest thing for me though, because if you’re honest with me I’ll have more respect for you, but if I find out you lied then all my respect would be gone.”

Q: What’s your favorite name?

A: “Gavin”

Q: What’s one of your proudest achievements?

A: “Having a family”

These weren’t all of the questions that were asked just the ones I feel comfortable sharing. After answering 25ish questions my dad fell asleep and I decided to just stop it there. I feel like I learned a lot from this about my dad because I don’t normally ask these kind of questions about him. This was really interesting and maybe I can get more in depth about my dads life next time.

Perspectives

I had a bunch of people write about me for class and I thought I could type their comments onto my blog and respond to them. This is exactly what they wrote, I didn’t change anything.

Arsal: You are really weird and cool and you hate me and math. You really love math. I have known you since grade 4 and we haven’t talked since grade 6. We talking again in grade 9 outdoor ed. That is where we met Widmer and the rest is history!

Asna: Gavin you literally make my day! You are extremely funny and adorable. You always have a smile on your face which is hard to do all the time. I commend you. Thanks for being fab.

Madi: Gavin, hey pal. I genuinely think you are a great person with lots of interesting stories that I look forward to hearing. You are so funny and always tell the best jokes.

Cayleigh: You’re really sweet and warmhearted. You are a cute butt head with a big smile. Stay cool.

Alisha: Dear Gavin, You are friendly, you always have the enthusiasm of a small child. You may act serious, but I know deep down you are always a kid at heart. Filled with humor, you always seem to find the wicked in everything. You are a fairly good friend. Keep being deep like you are Gavin-DEEP. Truly mischievous you are.

Claire: I thought you were going to be a weird little boy and I was right. But when you’re not squirting your stupid water bottle at me, you’re a really funny guy, I love our awkward eye contact and how you wiggle your eyebrows also your nose.

Wild: Gavin, you’re a man in m life. An old man, who I know will do things in his life. Even though you can never be like Albert Einsteeno cuz you didnt take physics, but good luck.

Daania: You’re really nice, and a complete good! You’re really funny and are always making people laugh! You always have a smile on your face and it makes others want to smile. You’re a joy in the class and you’re wonderful!

Andrew: GavinDEEP! I didn’t really know you until now, but you’re a pretty cool person. Your thoughts are quite deep, keep on being you. Can’t wait to read your blogs!

First off, I want to say I really appreciate this. The fact that people can say positive comments about me makes me extremely happy, I can barely say positive things about me. I’m grateful for having friends like these, people that I can rely on and trust. I’m grateful for not being the kid I was years ago, the kid that did everything alone and didn’t know how to make friends. I’m grateful for you guys.

Narrative

I worry a lot about the future, in fact too much. I worry about what I’m going to be doing after these next 2 years. I’ve browsed endlessly for jobs that appeal to me, but nothing really jumps out. So far, all I have planned out is to go into pharmacy, but I don’t even know if I can support that idea with the grades I have right now. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to stay in one place for 8 hours almost every day helping people with their medications as a pharmacist. Most of my friends have already decided what they’re going to be pursuing and I still have no idea. Hopefully I’ll figure something out by the end of grade 11 and it won’t be something too boring. I find it so hard to study, I don’t think I’m going to be able to do well unless I completely change everything I do after school. I believe that the problem with me is that I can’t focus on one task. Something simple like reading a book is a challenge for me because I’ll hear, smell or see something that’ll grab my attention and I’ll totally forget about reading. I’ve been reviewing what I’ve learned when I come home from school to help me with this, but there aren’t many differences that I’m seeing with anything. I hope this changes for grade 12, so I can do what I want to, for the rest of my life. Another thing I worry about is university. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to get into the one I want to. I find it really stupid how the short 2 years near the end of high school decide what you’re going to be doing for the rest of university and possibly your life. I’m not a big fan of change and having to go to a different place, in a different city, meeting different people is a pain because it already took me 3 years to develop friendships with the people I know in high school. Now I have to make new friends, which will just bring out the overwhelming amount of anxiety I have. I think i’m just going to go with the flow, just do what interests me in high school then, when the time comes I’ll make the decision. All I hope is for now is to be able to create myself because we don’t learn who we are, we create ourselves, and that is what I’m going to do.